24 hours deep
It's really not that bad. Hahaha. Okay I've cried once, but it was more getting teary eyed. I've gotten extremely tense a few times, but honestly, I talked myself through it. It is kind of amazing that something I have struggled with for more than half my lifetime is a simple matter of saying..."Okay, I expected to feel this, I can get through it." And just going through it. Where might I have been if I had mastered this skill at say, 21?
Ah well. I'm here now, that' s what matters.
On another note, the if the intensity about wanting a dog was NOT at a fevered pitch a week ago...boy howdy it is now. We watched "Marley and Me" and my boys are now officially insane about it. And I'm about three steps behind them. We are ready for puppy love.